"dysfuctionally inspired"

Wednesday, January 23


I am Bigger Than You.


    it was dark out, everything illuminated only by street lamps and headlights of passing cars. you boarded the cab and stared out at the window. the moment when you wish it rain. jaded and and stil couldn't get quite ditch the thought of how entering university can be a problem. i know it wasn't that lame, but i don't like to belittle or be put in comparison with. i know i have a bigger heart no one can insanely be on par with me, not especially him or her.

    as the cab cruises along the expressway, you almost wish it would collide with something else, just because you're sure it would feel better than sitting in that backseat at that moment.



    D says:
    truth is, i know he has high expectations

    D says:
    and i dun want him to settle for anything less

    HerMan says:
    darl........

    D says:
    and im not willing to have someone who cant appreciate me fully

    D says:
    further more, i don't intend to have a bf now

    HerMan says:
    its his lose if he were to thinK tht way

    HerMan says:
    look at his ex who got a degree who can't even behave well.

    HerMan says:
    smart but imature.

    HerMan says:
    and wanting to get a 16k handbag?

    D says:
    thats why i dun think we should get too comfortable

    D says:
    dawn is very smart

    D says:
    smarter than him

    D says:
    and she is rich (omg, what the heck?)

    D says:
    i dunnid to compare myself with her. though she has her qualities

    D says:
    i have so much more, but i dunnid to be compared like this

    HerMan says:
    if thts how tantan thinKs then let him be

    D says:
    i have a heart so big i never need to belittle myself

    D says:
    and i cant tell him. grr.

    D says:
    so i just have to let him go

    D says:
    hey darl. im not not bothered by it anymore. maybe just last night. if i dun think he's worth it, i dunnid to spend more than 1 night thinking about it. lol.

    the above convo sorta submarised why/how/what happened. im off to pack for my bali trip for thursday. wedding, parties, massages and shopping, i have tons to feel bunny, i never need a him to step in.

    humans are such predictable disappointing creatures at times you just can't help laughing it off and pat your own back for being the brave one to want out.
posted by fries @ 12:18:00 AM
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