"dysfuctionally inspired"

Sunday, December 29



    when i reached the club last night, i was dragged away by some of the customers and they started asking me the same questions over and over again. "y are u leaving the band?", "you leaving to get married ah? when?", "what u gonna do after that?", "are u still gonna do part time then? gimme a call, i'll come and support u!" and "y u want to leave the band? MUST be getting married right?"and it always end with their patronising laughter...

    IM NOT GETTING MARRIED!!

    soooo annoying. do i need to get myself married before i can consider to be leaving the band for good? seriously, is that all they(the older generations) can think about? not even for them, sometimes when i invited the middle age's customers to come for my farewell, they'll also go "oh ok..*flashes smiles back* you getting married ah?" .i think its everyone's assumtion that's irking me. or i think everyone just presumed, "whats a singer to do if they're leaving the entertainment line and not getting married? i think she got dumped by the band", it became worst when i know lots of them actually thought "what future does it hold if they didn't find a rich man to marry? i mean they are singers right? whoa..that means good life in future then? must be a rich husband.."

    my answers became shorter and shorter eventually, and i wish i could just get out of the scene of being drowned by the lame questions they poured on me. " oh no, im not getting married, im getting a day time job,coz i've been singing for so long.and i have plans to further my studies and also if i have the chance, dun wori, u'll still see me once in awhile.i will come back as a part timer though." till it became, "no, im not getting married, i wish i am though" then i will laugh hysterically with them. see how much i want to get myself out of these shit? i don't even bother to elaborate anymore, i think they don't even care what the fuck you have once you step out of the club.

    when i was on stage last night, it strucked me that all these faces under the lights, swinging their body in sync with the tunes of the songs, singing along with you and saying things like they'll miss you are all just bullshits. most of them actually befriended you just because u are a star in the club and im sick of the crappy world. i don't belong here.
posted by fries @ 4:09:00 PM
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