"dysfuctionally inspired"

Monday, February 18


Right Track , Wrong Track.


    am planning for a trip to hong kong. miss all that cantonese already. dim sum and shopping can be in my check list everyday i doubt i will OD from them anyway. *giggles* tix at budget airline looks good for now for the summer sale period. *taps finger on chin* should i?


    i have questions thrown at me for that thin line between what im in now and being IN a relationship. with much annoyance, i simply cant be bothered to argue or try to convince anyone anymore. seriously, i do not have to answer to every, single, one of them. lol. we chose our paths and we run our own tracks right? *smiles*

    fear of committement? nah. i normally have no fear for even the pandora's box, but am more than willing to try new things and anticipated what are the many suprises to come. but seriously, if not im not prepared to be IN a relationship, and am very much still enjoying every bit of my life, i don't see why i have to join "the norm" just so im not outcast being alone as a single. i am good and happy to stay where i am. pronto.

    so much that a whole lot of peeps couldn't fathom my insistant to keep my single status (which i am really not- im just being fair to the other party, that i can't commit during this transistional period of my life with work and school and hopefully work on more photo projects soon. i really want to stay alot more focus in my goals in life), im also in the confused zone - why MUST we make our companion our official partner. if thinking that having annouced to the world you have him/her being your official partner, is at least some kind of security to be in a manogamous relationship, that they wouldn't cheat on u, think again. you're absolutely on the wrong track in comparison to mine. *pats your back*

    with my situation, having a companion will be less complicating if i decided one day to drop all things and move on without apologizing that im wasting their time. it is mutual and agreed upon from the start and while we still enjoy each other's company, we still treasure the time spent and have dinner/movies/any other activities like any other couples. the only difference - which is the best part - is that we actually focus on being a good company and just not expect highly of how one should reciprocate and the thought of us having the possibility to end sometime soon would make us appreciate today more and make effort to make everyday beautiful untill we go on seperate paths. i do not have a boyfriend, pronto, BUT i do enjoy every day spent with my companion who makes me laugh and am able to share my tears and joy and yes, we can talk about everything under the sun too.

    if being single can still be happy like me, you prolly need to reflect on your relationship and think about what constitutes to being happy? we need to know whats the meaning in life, and you'll be amazed that the purpose in life is REALLY just as simple as that.
posted by fries @ 6:43:00 PM
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