Monday, November 12
Dicovering a New Bunny.
- my heart skipped abit when i saw him came online. unexpected and seriously have absolutely no idea why i even felt a tad bit nervous. fuck. have i gone mad?? *pfft at self*
so. i continued with what i was doing and a message alert came up. *widened eye to see his name at the task bar - blinking*
him: just got back from jakarta
him: couldnt respond to ur text - ran out of credit
me : hey no worries
me : u must be tired. go sleep
him: yeah - in 2 mins
and so the episode ended just like that. :)
in fact, i always remember of our conversations almost always short and very vaguely, ever sweet. message however, always clear and sometimes when i think back, kinda cold (example: TCC always mean dinner and sex after and sleeping over at his place. kinda mutual)
i have no recollection of when the butterflies flew in my stomache or if i have ever twirled and landed on the lovely grassland. maybe im over the lovey dovey days and looking for what we have the mind vs the heart. maybe there wont be love fairytale for people like me anymore. and strangely, ive settled for this thought and at absolute ease with whats happening. escapades of recents years have creep up to me and seducing me with all devilish excitement. although deep down i yearn to love and behave like a lil kid doing silly things and sweet lil nothings. spend days and night doing nothing and just missing that someone. hmm. to be in love like this again - i dream not anymore. i wasnt even warned of the transitional period of my life. i ought to learn about myself. all over again.
how growing up can change oneself. our thoughts during a different phase in life. u sometime amused self discover a brand new u. incredulous isn't is?
posted by fries @ 12:08:00 AM
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