Tuesday, December 31
- im going for haircut today!! *bite nails* new hair cut for the new year! yay! so i should be heading down to toni and if there's time to spare, a visit to the doc(i didn't sleep well,and i have a show tonight, so i might need a jab later) should be good. after my grooming is done, i have to be at esther's for a game( her granny will be making fish head curry for lunchies too! *drools*) with joan, sisterkins and margaret. *rub hands in glee*
shall be joning the girls later after work( they have not decide on the place yet), so im gonna miss the countdown with them again.(gotta stick my head at work for the one last time eh..pfft). ok, happy new year in advance everybody!!!
*dancing away with head nodding*
background + her annoying alarm soon to be slap.
Monday, December 30
- Today im $800 richer!
*wink wink wink*
thanks to the red packets i recieved from the customers. its a sad and heartbreaking moment though. hmm..actually, im still in the band, because i still have the new year's eve show *whines* tomorrow.
will be meeting wendy and pat for dinner at orchard plaza's ah meng cafe. *shudders* wonder what will happen though.
background + silje nergaard
still be my heart
Sunday, December 29
- when i reached the club last night, i was dragged away by some of the customers and they started asking me the same questions over and over again. "y are u leaving the band?", "you leaving to get married ah? when?", "what u gonna do after that?", "are u still gonna do part time then? gimme a call, i'll come and support u!" and "y u want to leave the band? MUST be getting married right?"and it always end with their patronising laughter...
IM NOT GETTING MARRIED!!
soooo annoying. do i need to get myself married before i can consider to be leaving the band for good? seriously, is that all they(the older generations) can think about? not even for them, sometimes when i invited the middle age's customers to come for my farewell, they'll also go "oh ok..*flashes smiles back* you getting married ah?" .i think its everyone's assumtion that's irking me. or i think everyone just presumed, "whats a singer to do if they're leaving the entertainment line and not getting married? i think she got dumped by the band", it became worst when i know lots of them actually thought "what future does it hold if they didn't find a rich man to marry? i mean they are singers right? whoa..that means good life in future then? must be a rich husband.."
my answers became shorter and shorter eventually, and i wish i could just get out of the scene of being drowned by the lame questions they poured on me. " oh no, im not getting married, im getting a day time job,coz i've been singing for so long.and i have plans to further my studies and also if i have the chance, dun wori, u'll still see me once in awhile.i will come back as a part timer though." till it became, "no, im not getting married, i wish i am though" then i will laugh hysterically with them. see how much i want to get myself out of these shit? i don't even bother to elaborate anymore, i think they don't even care what the fuck you have once you step out of the club.
when i was on stage last night, it strucked me that all these faces under the lights, swinging their body in sync with the tunes of the songs, singing along with you and saying things like they'll miss you are all just bullshits. most of them actually befriended you just because u are a star in the club and im sick of the crappy world. i don't belong here.
- more pix from x'mas
******
in the cab..
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i can't sleep. can't believe im leaving the band(after three years) tomorrow. need to sleep soon, i don't want to screw up my last day. *keeps fingers crossed*
background + stina nordenstam
memories of a colour
Saturday, December 28
- just had my christmas family dinner( was late because el was not in town and don had to work, we had to postphone till today). *soothes stuffed tummy* gawd, how am i going to cut all these? *staring down at her flabby arms, thighs and huge huge tummy* i have to do something before i regret. but how am i going to curb my snacking tendercies too? how how how? i fucking hate diet plans, and worst, FOOD is irresistable...
- just recieved a birthday e card from baby g(am i too demanding if i ask if thats the best a man can do? i wonder..), it would make alot of difference if he had choosen to call though. pppfffttttt...
SURPRISE!!!!!!!
afterall, they did eventually tricked be to believe that they're not coming to my club last night. when all of them walked in, i was dumbstrucked man. even the guys came! they had brought tears to my heart, its all these efforts(and baby g's negligence) that makes you realise its fucking worthy to dump your boyfriend for your beloved bunch of monkies. i know its unfair to judge it this way, but at the moment, it how i truely feel.
we(the gals) proceeded to the liquid room for more partying with eric and the rest. cindy and sisterkinny ivy headed home though. ppsss..this is actually the first time after my last official celebration long time ago that i wished i could stretch my birthday. honest.
*swoons* *sobs* *shakes her bon bon*
*tapping her fingers on your back* erm, can i really stretch my birthday? *big grins stretching across her face*
No??
*stomps her feet to a corner and squated down sulking and pouting*
anguish accumulated, *cursed and swear*
@#*&%$@#....
fine! fine! fine!
proceeds to stare into the blank space..
IM STILL A HAPPY BUNNY THOUGH... *smiles*
background + saint germain
jazz potato
Friday, December 27
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- i was awoke by the neverending message ring tones from my mobile. annoying. but they were all sweet wishes from all of those friends that have not message me last night. thanks. *hugs* my ex(eric) called to send me the best wishes, apparently, he's still in perth undergoing his training,its sweet of him to still remember. macho wil called after that(he's drunk from some party,he's in london now and he called me after we hung up the first time coz he don't rem that he'd previously called.wtf (?)..), and i was snuggling back to my covers when my phone rang again. anfa(fei fei) called me too!! haha, so i was distubed my international calls(anfa's residing in hong kong currently).still, you guys were sweet.
last came my gorgeous ck(i decided to spell it gorgeousikay. i called him that because i think he's a hell of a wonderful guy and i had jeopardised him reputation too badly before.). its been sometime since we chatted, he's in texas now(just thought you should know), will be back for holiday next mth, and that means my prezzie will arrive late. *sulk*.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!
*swings hand up in the air and did a little jiggy dance*
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by the way, sandy, i got your wishes too. thanks! thank! thanks! i still have not figured out how to do my comment box thingey. maybe you can help? :D that will be great!
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went velvet last night. it was ace. saw some long-time-no-see friends and invited them to my farewell party in my club. surprisingly, the birthday gal(aka me lah) was not drunk, despite raymond's determination to drown me with the cheers he offered. i couldn't even remeber how much i drank last night, and i was ready for some crazy actions, but nope, i was well behaved as usual but having loads of fun. patrick made me laugh so hard when i forced him to speak mandrain (he regretted trying to share what happened in his office yesterday, coz he had to translate it all to mandrain), and his mandrain sucks big time. all in all, i was enjoying myself.
and baby g have not call.
heck, heck, heck.
he told me he's gonna call on christmas.(which he didn't).he did send me an email though..hmmm...lets see..
26th dec 02' - 8pm
hey baby,
today i feel very london. we did tourbuses all day and got rained all day.
we saw just about all of the city, took lots of pix and had good family
time. tonight robyn and i are going on a walking tour of 'apparitions,
alleys and ales' - which should take us through some narrow old city alleys,
hunting for ghosts, with a stop for a beer in the middle. tomorrow we will
get to hang with our cousins and cousin claudia's kids.
hope you had a nice xmas. did you do anything special with your family?
see you soon,
love,
me
i think he had even forgotten that he'd promise to call on christmas day since there's no mention of it. hmm. sweet. it spells care and concern from his actions. reckon? well well..its my birthday eh? no point getting myself disturbed over it i guess. *smiles*
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background + silje nergaard
there's trouble brewing
- i was awoke by the neverending message ring tones from my mobile. annoying. but theay were all sweet wishes from all of thoes friends that did not message me last night. thanks. *hugs* my ex(eric) called to send me the best wishes, apparantly, he's still in perth undergoing his training,its sweet of him to still remember. macho wil called after that(he's drunk from some party,he's in london now and he called me after we hung up the first time coz he don't rem that he'd previously called.wtf (?)..), and i was snuggling back to my covers when my phone rang again. anfa(fei fei) called me too!! haha, so i was distubed my international calls(anfa's residing in hong kong at the moment).still, you guys were sweet.
last came my gorgeous ck(i decided to spell it gorgeousikay. i called him that because i think he's a hell of a wonderful guy and i had jeopardised him reputation too badly before.). its been sometime since we chatted, he's in texas now, will be back for holiday next mth, and that means my prezzie will arrive late. *sulk*.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!
*swings hand up in the air and did a little jiggy dance*
by the way, sandy, i got your wishes to. thanks. i still have not figured out how to do my comment box thingy. maybe you can help? :D that will be great!
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went velvet last night. it was ace. saw some long-time-no-see friends and invited them to my farewell party in my club. surprisingly, the birthday gal(aka me lah) was not drunk, despite raymond's determination to drown me with the cheers he offered. i couldn't even remeber how much i drank last night, and i was ready for some crazy actions, but nope, i was well behaved as usual but having loads of fun. patrick made me laugh so hard when i forced him to speak mandrain (he regretted trying to share what happened in his office yesterday, coz he had to translate it all to mandrain), and his mandrain sucks big time. all in all, i was enjoying myself.
and baby g have not call.
heck, heck, heck.
he told me he's gonna call on christmas.(which he didn't).he did send me an email though..hmmm...lets see..
26th dec 02' - 8pm
hey baby,
today i feel very london. we did tourbuses all day and got rained all day.
we saw just about all of the city, took lots of pix and had good family
time. tonight robyn and i are going on a walking tour of 'apparitions,
alleys and ales' - which should take us through some narrow old city alleys,
hunting for ghosts, with a stop for a beer in the middle. tomorrow we will
get to hang with our cousins and cousin claudia's kids.
hope you had a nice xmas. did you do anything special with your family?
see you soon,
love,
me
i think he had even forgotten that he'd promise to call on christmas day since there's no mention of it. hmm. sweet. it spells care and concern from his actions. reckon? well well..its my birthday eh? no point getting myself disturbed over it i guess. *smiles*
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background + silje nergaard
there's trouble brewing
Thursday, December 26
- X'MAS AT ZOUK
from shortest to tallest..
the three bitches whose tougue's hanging loose(bring me a sissor..anyone?)
i begged the bouncers to let me bring my pet, thay agree unless i leash her,and i did..hee..
look who we found..the stupidity of japan!! he lives up to he's name. BAKA. we love him !
chillin...with "good" and "peace", we're just chillin...
now thats warm..everybody, say awwwww....
sheldon's christmas' wish is to sqeeze a hot bod out from this.he has no chance of it, obviously.
THE PAIR!! erm...of individuals i mean..
when eugene expresses his loneliness..he's a dickhead from the back.
- i can't believe it. its my birthday tomorrow. eversince i turn 21, i dreaded it. or to use the right word, i hated it. im a capri, i love to be loved, and if i didn't recieve it i totally fucked it. its been 3 consecutive unhappy and dissapointing birthdays of anguish and rages and paranoir..u get my drift, and now, i'm totally freaking out! maybe the core of my annoyance came from expectance of love and surprises from whoever it may be, but let me warn you, its not as easy to please me when ITS MY BIRTHDAY. and to keep everything perfectly organised, plus the dissapointments of who does or does not remember the fucking day(or date?). i just hope everyone will forget it and let me get over it alone. coz i know no one else could ever please this(me) arrogant bitch, she a hard nut to crack, so hard, you wouldn't even want to touch it.
*tears her hair while she rants further*
and the surprises always leaked out(there's something wrong with these people of withholding a uptight surprise party),this time, its not a party, but i just found out that some are comming over to my club tonight. (see? thats why i say im such an anal when its my birthday.) was anyone listening when i say "hey, please, come any day to see my performance BUT not ON THURSDAY ok?" , am i even heard? oh fuck birthday, I HATE IT!! i don't want everyone to point their fingers at me and say "whys she so unhappy on her birthday?". the fact is, im a jovial person most of the time, i laugh as hard and clown myself to perk up everyone's life. and i don't want to ruin it on my birthday when im behaving like a bitch and sulking and harping on everything that gets on my nerves(on my birthday,everything its irking me).
woo...*takes a deep breath*
much better now..
oh, did i mention that im also emotionally vulnerable? when its my birthday,basically,it means its weeping your hearts out day(ya, im am SO SO FUCKED UP). whether or not when things begins to poke me on my ass or when people warmed me with sweet intensions, i can't control or hold back. and the last thing i want on my birthday is to be a cry baby.
*prays for the day to pass by in a snapped of her finger*
SNAP! SNAP! SNAP!
no chance..not even granting this. dammit.
arghhhh...
background + tori amos
flood
- just came back from a movie. nah, nothing great about it to share, im not into it. btw, after baby g had left since saturday, he only called once, on christmas eve's night inbetween my sets. said he'll ring yesterday(so that we would still be able to talk on christmas day though we're not together), but i recieved nothing. *shakes head slow and firmly* Yep, no calls. checked my mails several times since yesterday, just checked it again the first thing when i got home earlier. no shit. whatever.
i wonder if someone had fed my cat. he looks hungry(oh well, he's always throwing hungry looks at everyone, collecting all kinds of sympathy freebies. yes, my cat's like me, so now you know.) and i don't want to over feed him (he had been puking, its not the first time, he always encounter prob with his tiny bloated (?) stomache, we'd brought him to the vet a few times, he'd even under gone two operations for the sam prob before) , so i should just wait till tomorrow morning. that should do better. *gave a peck on meow meow's tiny cutesy head*
*yawn*
background + shy fx (dillinja remix)
bambaata
Wednesday, December 25
- .Homemade MTV.
gotta see this! cracks me up big time, damn stupid.
- its never enough.yet another radio link.the station's eclectic mix combines world beat, pop, jazz, rap, hip-hop, reggae, african, new wave, classical and new music with numerous live in-studio interviews and performances. the station's signiature music program, Morning Becomes Eclectic, has spawned a new nationally-distributed weekly show called Sounds Eclectic.
.KCRW.
*******
.Spacelab Transmission.
experimentalpop, indiepop, electronicpop, dreampop, with occasional lounge and punk!! Most of the artists I play are on independent labels. The playlist is randomised.
- i just got up.
*sheepish look*
went zouk last night, with the gals*, as i said, is always ace. but we din dance last night, found baka instead, he was wobbling and fucking high when i caught him in a corner alone.meiling and me took him with us to our table till his friends came(and thats till the fucking party ended, what kind of friends are they?)
anyway..
eric and shelon came by, and we had to make things difficult for the bouncers** when we snapped our way in the club(again, i will upload once meiling's scanned it all.) in all pics, i realised that i really oughtta lose weight. have to be determine about it. no more slacking and indulging for me.(life's a whore eh?)
* pat, meiling and sharon.
** why are they call bouncers anyway? they don't bounce at all.not even bouncy. i would want to see that.
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Merry Christmas To you.
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background + silje nergaard
at first sight
Tuesday, December 24
- our party rawked!!! everyone was having too much fun and catching up with everyone of them is never regretful. i love ya all man! though we were dissapointed by pauline and some others who couldn't make it, we make it up by clowning ourselves the whole time. (especially baka, mummy pat, duis, chun and me) food was double yum, and we all looked like we didn't belong, like "Blast From The Past" (name of our theme night).
after feeding those hungry souls, we moved back to the room for some games. took plenty of shots individually( will upload them once wendy email them to me), and headed down to mohamad sultan(i know thats boring, but we decided there coz we have lots of choices to choose from). we the cheapos decided on dblo because of the two complimentry drinks for each (yay, we are The Cheapos! haha!), and we ended up banging ours up and having a fantastic time. not till wendy spoiled everyone's mood and conned us to madam wong(that fucking beng-ish's place).anyway, i don't think i want to talk about it now too. *sighs heavy breadth*
ok, thats it for now..im rushing out for my christmas dinner with my band at ponggol marina now. *heard stomache growling* will update soon. *flying kisses*
oh, by the way, i'm meeting the gals at zouk tonight. can't wait. :D
merry x'mas!
- over lunch..
blabbering shan.
leng long,leng long..
In the Water..
comical duis.
my solemn pet
hold on el..hold on..
she is meeeee!
Sunday, December 22
- i thought el is touching down yesterday, i think i mixed it all up again. damn. so there'll be no one to direct me on the road later. *bite nails* hmm..kinda scary leh..
today's the party!! my presents are not even wrap. *grins* i borrowed alan's car for two days and will be driving over to pick mummy pat and daddy jo up to the club for checking in. *gulp* i hope i won't get lost on the way man. i hope i will still be in one piece after tonight. i hope all the drivers will steer away from my lane (ya, fat hope), and i will drive safely all the way. fuck, i'm a little paranoid now. but what if i die on the road later? *shudders* i think i need to write up my will first.
scribbles..srcribbles..srcibbles..
i will give my guitar to my cat..(i think he loves it too much,coz he always hangs around it)
and my cat to my mum..(honestly, my cat treats my mum like her master more than me coz she's the feeding master *narrowed her eyes at meow*)
my sisterkinny ivy, will have my bro-in-law, don..and vise versa..(don't bother to give the lovey dovey pair anything, besides, they're contented with what they got, the both of them)
all my clothings and bags to my muarchiesis el..(though it doesn't make a diff, coz she always digs my wardrobe)
*as she wrote her will, tears rolled down from her cheeks* i will love ya'll..*sob sob sob*
oh.. all my books to ck..(he loves to read, what else can you do when you have no women?)
the whole set of sex and the city to macho wil..(another boring pathetic ass..no girls, no sex..*pat pat*)
all my smoochies for my baby g..(think he might keep my corpse too)
all my money......BURN WITH ME! BURN WITH ME!
if i don't get to spend it, no one does!
*sniffles*
just in case i die.just in case..
wish me luck eh.
tatata.
background + shy fx (dillinja remix)
wolf
- .Drum n Bass Arena.
Bang it! Bang it! Bang it!
- He's bailed out. i was just told that he came back to surrender. erm..im still skeptical about it. sori zeck, but you had fucked us up countless times, its quite alot to digest since the last ordeal. if he fucked us up this time again, all our electronics and furnitures will be swipe out, mad offered her computer's reciept too, so if he runs away again, thats gotta go too. please, spare your mum her life..*fingers crossed*
What the hell...
mum locked my room's door( thanks mummy dearest btw ), but she didn't even ask if i brought the keys out?
Now i don't have my door knob....
i was in a rush to work after sending baby g to the airport( *sob* bye moochies ), and i was frantically trying to open my door when i realised its locked. (fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck ...the list goes on..) and i had to do it..i banged my door open. i was already in a horried mood today and this had to happen.
Friday, December 20
- .UNCONTROL.
Kool site. Now shoos.
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Early christmas! Merry christmas!
My greetings to ya'll. you're welcome darlings..
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i was on the way home this morning and was tuning into 95fm. sometimes the things they share are really hilarious(and gross!), like today's. the dj's were disscusing if you'll pee during shower.(eeww..) frankly, i find its gross, but there's nothing wrong with that ?! the two dumbheads who eww at anyone that confesses doing it on the spot, please wake up your fucking mind lah.personally, i will pee into the bowl at any chance possible, erm..but honestly ( i speak the truth and nothing but the truth), i did that before too (so? no big deal). haha, ya i know im gross. but its not like i wanted to (for godness), its like you're in the middle of shapooing your hair, you felt the gush and you're all wet and soapy, whats more your eyes are blinded my the foams dripping from your forehead, tell me...will you still try to look for the toilet bowl just to release yourself when you know it will just flow and be washed by the water instantly? WILL YOU? whats really gross: those who never wash their hands after taking a poo in restaurants( i witness it all the time!!!!).now thats really EEWWWW man. *wince*
background + jo stafford, nat cole(piano)
stormy weather
Thursday, December 19
Oral's B's negligence...my power from within..tragic befalls on the toothbrush..
I just broke my toothbrush into two! no fucking joke! haha, i think my gums are stronger than that? So much for Oral B's magical(or so they say) brush and they overlooked the importance of having a stronger holding stick that can withstand the force from tooth brushing? Seriously, how hard is that?
Boo hoo Oral B! Boo hoo!!
- 10 more days before i wave goodbye to Speedz 4.can't believe i have been singing for 3 years. from the original Speedz band that consist of 5 of us including joe and sisterkin(elica),and till el decided to leave our band for good. then came jennifer, who only replaced el for less than a year before esther came in( and they decided that joe have to go too, various reasons). i will miss all these..
the three of us, margaret, lynn and me, are so call the pioneer of the band( since our band started with us in it).for some reasons, i should be closer to the two more than the others, but the fucking gal(lynn) is really getting on my nerves, she's seriously myopic about what she had caused me to go through with her stupidity and sometimes i think i shouldnt have defended for this whore bitch at all. wonder if i should just let myself out a little and fuck up her ass on stage and see how she hope she'll just die there,and i wish there's no hellhole for her to burry her fucking soul.everyone hated her, and i don't understand why am i the only one she choose to step on? she's always blinded by the good surrounding her and stupidly eliminates them with her evil selfish doings. i don't hate her, but i don't think i will ever want her in my sight after i leave the band unless i don't have a damn choice.
- YEEPEE YAY!
Shadowy ChicK is joining us for a holiday to tioman!! Yeepees!
Baby g revealed that he's bringing me for a holiday as a birthday prezzie! Yay!
where shall we go?
omg! for 2 fucking weeks!!
*lifting up her feets in glee, swinging*
Im a happy bunny!!!!!!!
- Yay! i have a fotolog !
Wednesday, December 18
- yet another quiz.
Do you know your arse from your elbow?
My favourite pet
daddy jo!
oops.in case u're wondering..nope, thats not the finger.
met up with some of the girls yesterdaay at sizzler for lunchies.let's see..sharon lovely had everything but her hair straightened. wendy arrived later. *shudders* And yes, still as anoroxic, but at least she ate some noodles. after our marathon buffet lunch,i went to get baby g's christmas prezzie. got him a key chain from montblanc. *nods* yes, it burnt a whole in my wallet, but its all worthy. later, we settled at coffe club and wendy had to make a move. joyce join us for her dinner till i waved goodbye to both pat and her when baby g came to pick me up at paragon.joycie darling could only catch a glimpse of my baby through the back window glass of the cab.
Its our christmas night, so gary brought me to a western restuarant name The Grill for a candlelight dinner.its down at devonshire rd, nice ambient, according to his friend, its a romantic place, indeed. *smile* we were ushered to a table by the christmas tree and that perfected our christmas dinner. food was yum and we went back to exchange our christmas gifts. we both coincidentely bought two prezzies for each (telepathy i guess?). i got him a massage gel, for his frequent complains of his backache.(ain't i thoughtful?) he got me a prada wallet...AND NORA JONES' CONCERT TICKETS on the 23rd of jan! *jump over and gives baby g a big hugs accompanied by thousands of kisses*
Aww...im a lucky bitch eh?
tee hee...*giggles at her shameless smirking self*
background + chicane
before today
- Meet the meat.
(::)
Engrish?
Haha..Go there, its hilarious!
Tuesday, December 17
- Im slumming at home..spit on me!
- I lurve off day!! will be meeting sharon lovely, daddy jo and mummy pat for lunchies atin town today. Yay! Have to get prezzies for baby g later, we're having our early christmas celebration today because he's leaving for london on the 21st. *sob*
Laters.
:)
background + lamb
gabriel
- Just send wil and teck wee off. Off to london. *waves at macho wil enviously* See ya on the the 2nd of next year.
*sulking to the fact that she missed the trip*
Before they left, both of them came to my club.Yeh, stupid wil couldn't make it for my farewell, so he came down with teck as to make it up. Ya, like wtf loh..no meaning right? But still, thanks for the thought. Okok, *fans macho wil off with both hands* appreciate ok?
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Finally had my guitar lesson yesterday. *checks her two swelling fingers* Had stopped practicing since i left my guitar at alan's for like more than a year ago! haha, me the slugger. *tsk at self* What a load of wasteful time anyway, turned out skelly jen's there too, and we ended up doing catch ups and alan got carried away with his work. Lesson started at approximately 1230pm, we finished at 430pm. Guess what, i only managed to learn three cords and ended up strumming retardedly out of rythem! No fawking shit!
*mental note to practice harder before my next lesson*
starting to realise the screen's blurry and getting smaller as her eyelids can barely hold any longer to stay open by then..
oops, bed time for me.
*trots back to bed*
background + chuck loeb
the music inside
Sunday, December 15
- by the way, im sorry that anyone who comes in here have to see my stupid pics. i just pick anything to test, not to act cute, coz i know im anything but cute. fuck cute.
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- When your small nose is suffering from blockages like traffic jams the first thing in the morning, this is sucks.
The worst is when you have a morning class.
*#@^>!*@%#)&
Friday, December 13
- Baby g is comming to watch my performance tonight.For the first time eh. *shivers* I have different reactions to certain ppl who comes to see me perform. And i do hope he's not those that causes me to stiff on stage.I had asked pat to ask the gals to join her too. By the way, since i started singing,for 2 yrs 11mths and 13 days, i think my girlfriends had only visited me for less than 5 times. One of them(wendy) even visit joyce's club like 2 times a week to see her sets. I think im really like a pathetic chick sometimes, hinting some,and openly reminding most that im leaving the band, PLEASE COME AND SEE ME PERFORM? Im fucking it, if everyone just want to wait till my farewell party, then i don't give a damn too now. It shows how much support you get from your friends sometimes, but don't you worry, im already dead over these bullshits. I just want to rant and get over it, so just let me be.
breaths in,breaths out..
ta dah!! im feeling much better already.*smile*
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The Biblical Curse Generator!
Now you can swear at ease without having to worry about offending God!
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TRANCE REPUBLIC. A local Dj constorium set up by a few local guys. Got this from paperdoll's blog.
background + max graham
slow motion
- on the way home from lunch with el, i was facinated by our synchronised steps.i was pointing excitedly the movements of our feet, totally in sync! at first, she brushes me off, but later, she started this hopping trick to move out of our beat, and i hopped back on the same feet to move in sync with her again. so, we ended up behaving l like two silly kids playing hopping and running short quick steps on the path way home.
then,
when we reached the block next to ours, we both had choose a different path back to our block(haha, we were in the mood for childishness today i think.),as i expected, i was at our blocked earlier than she did(i knew i would win, coz i had tried all the shortest possible routes home before,hahaha), but we have to walked seperately to the lift because we both have to be seperated by our block's letter boxes and the stairs.to my surprise, we arrived at our lift on the same time.but i spotted her cheating(cheater!), i immediately pealed off her tricks, i saw her running a little upon approaching our block.she thought she could trick me.no way el !! *smirks*
haha, it was fun though. *giggles* we behaves worst when the three of us gather together (plus ivy'sis) too.like three monkies !
- the irritating alarm is ringing and el totally ignores it like shit. *grabs for cotton balls and stuffs her ears with it*
Thursday, December 12
jona posted this for me,i think i have a big head here. *pout*
- I don't know why im unable to post my pix. Irritating man.
>:/
yeaterday, macho wil sorta stood me up. well, he came over to pick me up for dinner, we happily drove over to changi village, but just before we enter TPE, his godbro-in-law had to ask wil over to his office for assisting him some computer problemo. what perfect timing. anyway, i told him to send me back home then. he was totally appologetic, and after all these, im bearing the sufferings. i had to dig into instant noodles. *cornered her eyes at wil* okok, im not blaming you, its not your fault anyway, right? *moved towards his god brother and locked her eyes on him*
slurp slurp slurp
the instant bowl noodles el bought from japan is yummy!
bbbuugggrrrbb
oops..eeessskeewwsss me.
*grins*
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summary:
if you want to make me happy, just FEED ME ..
background + elica's buzzing..
Wednesday, December 11
a taste of tropicana.
i like how the clouds land on top of the rocks here.(if u can see it tho)
paradise.....and my new slippers!
beach behind bitch. Bleh.
the lazy bum
these are snaps taken on macho wil's birthday trip to bintan. I love that place. we had a great time there, despite its only a one night stay.
- I just upgraded to pro. Thanks for helping me out jona! *big huggies* Hmm..lets see how things will improve from here..
*takes a sip of her hot earl grey*
By the way, sisterkin is back, will be meeting macho wil for dinner at charlie's corner, allocated at changi village, wil lurrrves the place,especially the hot dogs(i forgot whats the freakin name for that).The last time, he kept pushing me to try everything thats on the menu.I had warned him not to praise stuffs like god if he wants me to lower my expectations,which he was too late at pulling it down, too bad.But it wasn't so bad lah, just not SO GODDAMN DELICIOUS as he was exagerating it. Blah blah blah...
I dreamt that i was pregnant, i saw the father, i think he was one of my ex(can't remember which one tho). was devastated ,coz i told someone that i was about to leave the father and now this had happened to me. i remember vividly, that i actually was carrying a big belly like a 7 or 8 mths pregnant women has.
Was in a horried mood when awoke..
I was told by the elders that dreaming of being pregnant is a bad omen, to break it or to avoid these bad interpretations, you have to spill out your dreams over at dinner or during meals. Im not a superstitious sort, but i had been practicing this striking out bad energy since was young. Hope i will remember to do that over dinner later. *keeps fingers crossed*
time to prepare for the other half of my day.
what should i wear for work tonight.. *drumming her fingers on her desk*
background + paul oakenfold
transport full
- Another favourite online haunt of mine, for sheer, unadulterated silliness is RatherGood, if only for this.
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.Nose Picking Game.
totally unproductive. but i spent some time playing anyway.
i think you would too.
- Went to bed at 11am. Woke up feeling totally refresh at 8am.
I'm all perky and hyper today!
Tuesday, December 10
- Im more than half a bitch. And i love it.*smirking*
Wish i could score more. *sigh*
Bitch results.
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time to get ready for dinner.
background + betty lavette
let me down easy
- Crazy Sytes. Enter a URL and you'll get a view of your favourite sites, looking as though they've been written like a ransom note. Cool eh.Though not a lot of practical value.(Also, the site didn't werk in Chimera on the Mac, so I suspect it may not werk in Netscape).
This is Inspiredfries Crazy Syte
ACE !
- Testing testing...
Its working again.
Ok, its worth my fuck then.
*sigh*
Pathetic blogger.
- Fuck Blogger. Its down again.
- ZECK GOT ARRESTED.
Im having a mixed feeling of relieved and disturbed.
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DECISIONS DECISIONS DECISIONS.
Elica : so what you intend to do?
Me : I donnoe... *tears her hair*
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I bought a cd, two books.. should i give ck the book or the cd.
Why did everything seems so difficult nowadays.
Or have i slowed down too much.
Gawd. i don't want to be a retard.
background + dusty springfield
the look of love
Monday, December 9
- Just reached home. Met up with gary(not my baby g but another gary),he was one of our regulars before his friend ricky frequent bishan ntuc.He used to be in the oil business, then beauty products, and now juggling with both.Tried talking me to work with him, i guess its better than selling beauty products, but no thanks.
On my way to compasspoint, i heard my name being called from far, searched and turned my head over my shoulder and i saw him. He's on the way back and asked if i'd eaten.Maybe im unforgiving, but after all that had happened, i don't believe anything that comes out from his mouth are true words from his heart anymore. We exchanged brief conversations and proceeded seperate ways.
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Will be meeting macho wil and maybe el for supper after work .Might head for either pool or if there's any chance, mj sessions? *giggles*
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background + some hokkien songs i hated but have to learn by thurs..AAAARRRGGHHHH !
- I decided to withdraw the trip to london with macho wil.(sorry buddy). but i don't think its smart for poor chap like me to splurge on holiday trips, especially when there's like four of them (which three of them don't come cheap). El and jamie would be going amsterdam in april, so meanwhile there's time to save up for the trip. *hyperventilates* Wil wants another bitchy trip, oops i mean beachy *tsks at self* , prolly to tioman this time. I told sisterkinny i'll be paying for the entire trip to tioman, including the expenses and shopping stuff for her as her birthday prezzie. *wink* Hope it won't burn a hell of a big hole on my pocket.
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.Opera Baby.
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Mushy to you, sweet to me..
19th nov 02' 4:18pm
I am a moochaholic and you are my favourite bar
3rd nov 02' 7:19pm
Can you feel that? *biting your neck ever so gently*
P/s : too much of it with cause sudden nausea. So it explains why I have to stop here. Haha.
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lifted of Ginnette's blog. very suggestive juxtapositioning of a booger eating J.Lo. cracks me up!
background + portishead
it could be sweet
Saturday, December 7
- I hate it when i don't feel like staying at home. I hate it when he is back. I hate it when i see uninvited in my room. I hate it when we all have to watch out for our valuables, not becoz of him, but the fucking intruders he brought back. I despise all his friends, good for nothing and disrespectful. They are somewhat paralyse i think,(for this im pin pointing on all of them), like they they were never taught the basic courtesy or no sense of hygiene to how to fucking flush after every visit to the washrooms. I don't know how long this whole agony is going to strech my nerves and pushed my limits like the last time again.But clearly, i don't think i can let him manipulate our family again. Fuck you if you think we're you're fucking slaves or you financial dependers. If only you had respected us even the slightest bit the last time, i might have like you a little more. And your two faces with me are totally undespicable!!
Im going out with el now. I hope it will all be over soon. I hope my mum can find the keys to my room, keeping the dimwits outta my room.
background + diana krall
autumn leaves
Friday, December 6
- Gawwwwd. I hate late nights. Had a game at esther's last night. Draw game. *rants and raves* I agree when macho wil was says, "after 6 hours of time wasted, not even a soul was paid" .Haha, its not like we have to win, but at least we don't mind losing too, just not to a draw game, but it was fun though. *smile*
Linda's wedding was awesome. Everyone had arrived and disscussed the details of sabo-ing raymond(the bride's groom), and got things prepared in time before the guys reached.Audrey and i had prepared 4 shot glasses filled individually with honey/suger, bittergourd juice, chillie padi juice and concentrated lime juice for the groom.Traditionally, it means "suan, tian, ku, lah" .In chinese tradition, its a stage we believe everyone would have to go through, all the ups or downfalls, and the sweet or heartbreking periods in their life, here, raymond is just having a taste of it first, as a prove of endurance to their blessed marraige to eternity.He finished all four. Bravo! *clapping and cheering enthusiastically*
Sad to say, i can only finish this later part of it the next time, coz i need to get prepared soon, going to woodland.Eric is back coz the aunt had passed away, and im visiting the wake now. Sending my condolences to the family, they are like a family to me too. Eric and i had been together when we were younger, i was 17 then. For some good 3 years, i had been very close to his family, and till now, we still treasure our friendship. *hugs*
till then.
*waves a hurried goodbye*
background + tori amos
bliss
- .SUPPORT UNICEF.Christmas is near, thinking of getting someone something? Make it big, do it here.
Bugger song
I like this bugger. Puts a smile across my face.
Thursday, December 5
- How to i put it. Erm, i'm totally drained out. Im still sleepy and tired despite the 8hrs of sleep, plus and extra two hrs of nap in the noon. Will update about linda's wedding and macho wil's birthday's bintan trip. Both, are fun and unregretful even when it caused my soul and mental stress. *forced a smile* Im really weak and tired now, i feel so bad for leaving mummy pat and sis'l el alone to gary's for a nap. sorrie both of you, my sweet darlings. Please understand.
Found this.Fun and entertaining.
Burn them, Kill them!
background + diana krall
gentle rain
Monday, December 2
- Got this from jojo..Cracks me up.
ROMANCE MATHEMATICS
Smart man + smart woman = romance
Smart man + dumb woman = affair
Dumb man + smart woman = marriage
Dumb man + dumb woman = pregnancy
OFFICE ARITHMETIC
Smart boss + smart employee = profit
Smart boss + dumb employee = production
Dumb boss + smart employee = promotion
Dumb boss + dumb employee = overtime
SHOPPING MATH
A man will pay $2 for a $1 item he needs.
A woman will pay $1 for a $2 item that she doesn't need.
GENERAL EQUATIONS & STATISTICS A woman worries about the future until she gets a husband.
A man never worries about the future until he gets a wife.
A successful man is one who makes more money than his wife can spend.
A successful woman is one who can find such a man.
HAPPINESS
To be happy with a man, you must understand him a lot and love him a little.
To be happy with a woman, you must love her a lot and not try to understand her at all.
LONGEVITY
Married men live longer than single men, but married
men are a lot more willing to die.
PROPENSITY TO CHANGE
A woman marries a man expecting he will change, but he doesn't.
A man marries a woman expecting that she won't change, and she does.
DISCUSSION TECHNIQUE
A woman has the last word in any argument.
Anything a man says after that is the beginning of a new argument.
- More jazz links.
.THE JAZZ AND BLUES MASTERS.
- Why I Think *Some Ppl Needed The Little Smack On The Ass..
I have a nick (which i resented, coz it was given by some unimportant ppl i had even forgotten by now), Xiao xiao (meaning small small in chinese, don't bother why im even link to this. AND HELL NO ! In case the shallow thoughts of you ppl out there, "small tits" is what you dimwit can come up with, i have to educate you on that *drumming her fingers at you* ). But i do think that by not calling me diana,is consider disrespectful of my parents who decided to name me that, plus, its the only thing that was given by both my parents, since they were seperated even before i went to kidergarden, and an only evidence that proved the might-be-one-of-the-few mutual agreements between the two dearies to make me a Diana. But i can't stop a whole lot of them to not call me what im not but what im blessed with by my parents. Its irking me, in case you don't know. Even my stage name is Xiao xiao. *irritatingly rolls her eyes* To top off all this fustrations, ignorant ppl like *him, gave my name a spelling mistake, and from smally, he made me a pyschotic.
*Macho wil
(sacarstically) Thanks buddy..
Kopitao : Siao? or El?
(siao in hokkien means crazy or psycho)
diana : u siao or crazy?
(lost of words)
kopitao : Hi siao.................
(see, he immediately recognizes its me, how slutty is that? )
diana :hi silly...........
(i have no choice, thought he might relate better with "silly")
*creeps back under her snugglicious covers*
background + morcheeba
the sea
Sunday, December 1
- Skipped class today. *guitly look* I know its sinful but i slept at 3am today,plus i have a show before i starts work at night. So, i kinda need to be in a good shape, but if i were to wake up at 9 in the morning, i know im going to live hell for the rest of the day till i finish work at night. The worst thing is, on linda's wedding tomorrow, i have to reach her place by 615am! That will give me yet another rough day to hang on till the banquet starts at shangri la in the evening. Plus, i will be leaving for bintan on tue morning to celebrate macho wil's birthday with him, will only be back on wed. So now you know, its going to be a busy week eh.
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Sisterkins is back. She injured herself on the air craft. Poor gal. *soothes her swelling feet* So she had to pax back yesterday, and sweet macho wil went to the airport to pick her up.Really sweet of him, coz i heard from sis' el that he had not slept for the whole day. Thanks thanks wil.. *smile* We had got him he's birthday prezzie but i will only get it tonight. *sealing her lips with finger* Its a secret. Tee hee...
background + paul weller (portishead remix)
wildwood